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The harvest

Look to oceans, and look to the sky…look to the heavens and you’ll understand why.

Walk to the forest, and sing to the trees. Wander the meadows and let those tears feel the breeze.

Come to the valley, the gardens, and newly mowed hay…and you’ll find me…taking pictures, saving moments, and finding my words there. Later I’ll write them for your healing. And soon you’ll be feeling the soothing sounds there near the creek, the song of the dove, and a true friend’s love.

And come sunset you’ll come to realize what I harvest is care…and I have it all bundled for you. ‘Cause that is simply what friends do…Matthew

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Keeps your chins up friends. This in not a life of waiting till Fridays. It is a life to be lived, every day. They are all gifts, and can quickly become the last time you get to see someone or to be doing something good in your life. Today is a chance to smile, to earn, to effect good karma, and to love someone in person. Live your days friends, don’t spend them. MLL

A Saturday morning epiphany…
Why is it that elephants need and have such a great memory? They say that a matriarch elephant can recall and lead the herd to water…at a place she recalls they drank over twenty years ago. In the dry seasons the herd might have to roam many, many miles…perhaps a century worth. Or perish. But she can recall, and so life goes on.

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I thought about that a moment ago and realized that people have the same power of recollection. And when their soul is parched, their hope is dried up, love is lost in a dry creek bed, and smiles are but a dusty and distant memory…With luck, something will lead them again to a cool pool of faith, of restoration, of revival, of love, and a kind breeze of unconditional compassion.
And no matter how long it has been since one has been there at those soft and welcoming waters, there will be a pair of open arms and a safe place to allow life to seep back in…Come back, drink it in. Things will be alright there at the water’s edge…God has a good memory too.

Matthew.

Just a few more machines to touch on in the ED (ER) at the hospital here. It has been a pleasure and a privilege to work with those fine people in the midst of ‘their world’, and to witness the daily rigors. All whilst trying my best to stay out of their way.

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A lot of what they do is slightly similar to the stuff one sees on TV, be it drama or documentary. But a lot of it isn’t. And the benign cases that can be displaced by life threatening cases delivered by ambulance from one moment to the next can be heart wrenching to a casual observer like myself. But at the same time, one and all seem to remain objective, focused, and effective.
I can but only imagine what runs through an ER workers’ heart and mind after all is said and done at an eventful work day’s end.
I have admiration and empathy for what they are called upon to do one a constant basis. These are a special breed of folks, getting far too little credit for what they truly accomplish constantly. God bless the good souls who shoulder the load and manage to do so with a level of dignity, humor, and a great deal of care.
It has been honor to do my deed amongst them all. I’m humbled and grateful for the vicarious education I have been gifted there over the last five days or so.

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It’s nearly dawn. Not easy to wind down when I get home at 2 or 2:30 am…Time to try and sleep. MLL

Having a quiet day in my place here on this Sunday. The pole position is set for the Indy 500, Don Williams is playing through my nice bedroom system. I should mow, I should dust and put stuff away. But God rested on Sunday, so I will too.
I’ve been thinking about my Dad…our Gordy has gotten old. He’s worked and drove and loved and given all he had to give. And yet he toils and mows and dusts and reads and remembers.

Dad and his girls

Dad and his girls

My Dad is akin to a tired aged grape vine. Many decades in the sun and cold. Years of fruition and harvest. If grapes be children, and wines be their labor…Well Gordy has more than done his job. Even now when the vine is barren, the rains don’t fall…the nights are longer and the longing is fading. Here we sit in dusty bottles. The fruits of his labors, the best he had to give. And the younger vines still hold bunches of sweet fruit. The circle remains…
Not all wine is sweet, not all grapes are desired…but with pride and gentle love remains Gordy…mostly missing the love of his life.
The days are a precious commodity now. Father’s day will soon be at hand. And there sits the keeper of memories, the teller of stories, the holder of babies. A slightly gnarled and resting old vine.
You’ve earned your rest Dad, and unlike some others, I forgive you for having gotten old. You’re my hero, my wonder, my pride. You’re my Momma’s only man, just as she was your only girl…

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I hope your sleep is peaceful, and your memories grow more kind. I hope you’re satisfied and proud of me…Love ya Dad. Your boy Matthew, your number four son.

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Giving thanks…

Today is Friday…I want to share what I’m thankful for.
Today, I am grateful for this past Monday…It was a day that followed a night of restless sleep. It was a day that brought me to meet old work mates, and several new. It was awkward and uncomfortable part of the time. Monday was the first day of a new job. Monday was awesome.
Today, I’m very grateful for Tuesday past. Again, I was tired and grumpy, being forced to learn and retain, and be nice to others when I’d rather have been in bed. Being gainfully employed is a gift regardless. It was indeed a great day.
Today, I’m elated to have had Wednesday…I was stressed, I was challenged…I was spread thin and looking forward to my chair when I got home. I made money all day. I bonded with folks around me and grew confident. It was a perfect day.
Today I’m grateful for yesterday. The reflections of earlier this week were polished with a gladness, because I was involved, had prayed a lot for those in my life fighting the good fights, mourning the loss of family, struggling with daily life. Prayers are being answered.
Today, I’m grateful for my hard and trying week, I’m grateful for the ability to lean very hard on The Serenity Prayer, on The Lord’s Prayer…I’m grateful at the prospect of starting work at noon and working till midnight.
I’m not looking toward the weekend, for though there will still be a Saturday and Sunday, I won’t have a break from my tasks…and may work both days. For this I’m thankful.
Today and every day, I’m thankful for the ones before. They are, after all, what got me to this point. That is a gift regardless of the temper of them.
Even for days spent in worry, I’m glad there is God and his Son to pray to when troubling concerns accompany the passing of days.
I didn’t wish my week away in anticipation of Friday and the two days that follow. I earned, I learned, the night oils were burned…and I grew.
God bless all of you and your well lived weeks and well earned days of rest…and if there was no rest to be had, I hope you are thankful for the ability to endure and persevere whilst rising the occasion.
Have a great Friday friends, and do spend it well. No, in fact DON’T ‘spend’ your days. LIVE them, always. Matthew

Living without friends is akin to sailing a vessel without wind. You’re at the mercy of the tides, the currents, and the hours can be oh so lonesome…Moments of gladness, joy, loss and anxious waiting are far better spent with the gentle lifting and urging of the breezes a true friend brings. No sadder sight than a sail left to droop and sigh, without the accompaniment of nature’s companion to set her on the edge of a driving wind…so too is a soul alone and in need of the friendly breeze to fill the heart and send one off with a knowing and warmth inside…

Navigating a sea with no sense of direction doesn’t mean you’re lost. It just means you’ll set your destination after you reach a distant shore…It is called adventure, and without taking chances, there can be no mystery, none of the joy at finding what you never knew you were seeking…Risk a little, wander some, plan to make no plan, and live!

Living without love is having thirst without water. A parched heart is faltered and left in longing of the hydrating drops and bursts of life giving blood, in essence; Love is life, fruitful and merciful. Almost always, a mortal heart will resume to beating when blood returns…That remains miracle, as does love. And a kind love is makes one’s pulse seem to skip a beat…which is the best love of all.

Flying without vision is to sing in a windstorm. Let the gusts and gale accompany your serenading. There will be height; and a soaring sensation, a journey, a giving, a taking. A sensation of all and nothing all at once. To sing to the heavens or glide in them is a gift…but the gift remains only in the heart of the fortunate soul there doing either one. Have faith, open your eyes, rise above the storm, lift your voice, and bask in the moment…Soar.

Walking under sun shrouding clouds leaves one without a shadow. And yet you know that a breeze can part clouds and instantly an accompanying shadow joins in cadence. So too goes faith. One just has to believe and trust you’re not alone, in life or the universe…even in the dark of night or the fury of a storm. The calm follows the gale, dusk leads to night, and the sun emerges to usher in dawn and hasten darkness to hide the land and sea elsewhere. These things are certain, so too should be trust and faith. One can find light in shade, and certainty in uncertainty. Believe.

Living without faith is likened to attempting to fly a kite without string…No matter the design and material of a wind seeking craft, even in a stiff breeze, without the freedom of a binding string; there is no lift, no hope of flight. There can be no sense of a guiding hand nor a gentle tug, or a subtle release of the line, to momentarily remind you that no one makes the journey without a light, a hope, a link…a life line that gives flight and brings you to heavenly heights and gifts a celestial view of the world…surrender yourself and accept strength from above.
Matthew Lyle…(inspired by Lynnclaire, thanks to you fair lady)

break in winter weather…

It is warm and kinder outside today, and it’s wonderful to have my front door open. To hear a slow freight train wander past with horn in full song. And to see the sunshine without the normal freezing at this time of year.
I opened the door a while ago and could hear songbirds, a quiet breeze, and lingered autumn leaves making their way past on the street, or simply dancing in a lopsided circle...nature seems to somehow know how to make a celebration at every opportunity. We can learn from her. I know I can embrace and hold near to me a day or two of false spring, even whilst knowing that winter will soon have her way with us again.
Enjoy the day friends…I’m going to venture out soon and squint a bit at this solar gift well aloft of the chaos here on the ground. Matthew.

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I stole away the other afternoon…to convene with some memories made in the lighter months. I went to the home of a friend, a lover of sun and all things green that thrive in the sprinkler mist, sun showers, and morning dew.
There were none of those things there to greet me. Just a benign winter sun, giving light without heat and a breeze not to offer relief from heat. But it did deliver a chill and need to face my back to it.
And there was the walk of cobblestones with surf smoothed bits of colored glass, pebble, and shell in between. We had wandered the shore on serene afternoons with a dream and design in mind, that beckoned us to U.S. 101 and beaches to the south.

And on this day of frost and fading light…I was again wandering in brine soaked sand with the surf in my ears, and gulls hovering and singing their shoreline declarations in the steady breeze. And out of habit, I reached for that familiar hand to hold…and instead found but a memory. Ah, but such memories are so worth embracing and recalling time and again.

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Over half way through January and the daylight gets longer with each dawn. I see through the shadows and bare branches that the crow still feeds, the squirrel sleeps, and the critters in pasture huddle near to each other. And today I stand near to the place where the spring roses go to bud, the bulbs slowly reach, and the robin seeks a place of safety to fashion a nest…but this is all months away. For now I’ll unwrap a few saved moments and memories as I stand in the midst of this slumbered and treasured place…the fond things I’ve saved up for a rainy day. It’s not quite raining yet, but those ominous clouds are sign that a stormy evening is on the way…


It’s all good and it’s alright, for I know that the green is on the way…I saw winter wheat decorating a brown field just the other day. And a hawk was on the wing, in search of company, of a meal on the run. In search of a warm breeze, should the western gorge send a sweet Chinook stirring this way…And you can be sure that I too will turn my cheek to the sun then, and let a window down enough to feel a hint of spring on a winter’s day.


And I know you’ll occasionally look upon the hoses for watering, and tools for tilling and turning and planting of starts, seeds, bulb and the promising bare stem…And like a prayer uttered, we look on longingly and fondly, and busy ourselves while we hope and wait. God will answer, and winter will always be followed with spring.


With the gathering of fog on the rivers near to here, I listen to the chorus from a V of Canada geese passing overhead.

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And I know you rest assured by a faded rose hanging in the place near the book shelf, and over the mirror in your room. And know the gloves and watering can are eagerly awaiting your touch, as you anticipate that day as well. For now, I will wander near to the places there on a quiet afternoon, where nature and your knowing hands will soon provide me blossom, bud, gifts of new green, and heavenly scented blooms.


Matthew Landsman

 


 

…middle of winter, thinking about June. The sun did shine a little today but at 23 degrees, I cursed the sunset and wish the day didn’t have to end so soon.  But I put extra comforters on my bed, and wished I had a fireplace to sit by and compose words of summer, tales of friends…rhymes of my old loves as the frost descends at afternoon’s end.

Walkin’ the floor, folding my clothes…longing to be able to feel warm grass on bare toes, and having a drink from a garden hose. I watched a man at work the other day, pruning the rose bushes that bloomed till November. Even the flowers that had faded and withered still held onto the breezes of late July, the summer rains, and passers by…as did I.

I thought about sunrise at four am, dreamed about an open window and a nap in the afternoon. I sighed a winter sigh and looked to the west, looked to the sunset and realized that I hadn’t had dinner yet. And I reached into my pocket to find but an empty place, so I took my hand out and reached for you there. And I did find you tucked away warm and smiling in a dusty memory, found you waiting for me as I whispered a prayer. I sang a love song softly to your faded picture there…sang a song of lost loves and solemn days. As a mournful dove joined with me in the chorus before taking wing for a warmer place to sleep away night.

Middle of winter and the music is playing low. January slipping quietly by and reminds me to not wish it away…cause even un-embraced winter days are worthy and needful, and make great memories. And I will laugh of such nights in the July afternoons, but for now, you’re all I have, and I’ll have you along with a warm pair of socks and a James Taylor tune. And I’ll sing our song there in the shower as the suds roll to the drain. And I’ll be quietly reminded, that our time ended too soon.

It’s the middle of winter, and I’m thinking about June…thinking about long shadows and the rustling of leaves, and wishing our time hadn’t ended so soon. Matthew